I can't always count on my friends and my comfort zone. Sometime I need to start everything and stand by myself. And this time should be that sometime. I should sit around out there talking to them and laughing with them (or at least try to pretend) instead of being here writing this stupid post. Another proof of a low self confidence. Or I can just go to sleep, try to remove all these negative thoughts out of my mind. I should stop thinking like this. I really have to. Ok, sleep now.