The Whys

I'm getting sick of myself. Why can't i stop saying unnecessary things? Why can't i know I'm not funny and i should stop trying to be one? Why can't i stop trying to pursue something i know i can't have? Why should i wait until the very last moment to make sure I'm not worth it? Why should i wait until the dignity is gone? Why can't i just live normally, with normal friends and anything? Why can't i just be someone normal? Why.....